8 of Jewels and VIII of Pentangles

8 of Jewels
I really need to explore the thoughts and conceptions I have about work and money. There are some really bad crosscurrents going on up there. I really need to resolve a lot of them before I go job hunting. I was upset at being rejected over and over again last semester but there is probably a good cosmic reason for it. Those positions may have been extremely bad for my soul.

VIII of Pentangles
I switched from the Origins Deck to Waite for this card. The Waite image, it resonates with how I was raised. All the craftsmen around me as I grew. I am proud to be one of them. Working with my hands is a pleasure. A pleasure I have neglected much of late.

Then there is the craft of writing. A lot less visible most of the time but I have worked at it for so long, and it is a type of pleasure too.

Then there is the issue of money. I found out today that ~ has been borrowing money from friends at work to cover his spending. He blew $275 and another $70 he borrowed from people at work and maxed the credit card.

I haven't had much luck with money when others are involved. I need to go back to my budget. I need to make a budget for ~. He's upset with me because I don't trust him with cash. He thinks I don't care what happens to him now, that all I care about is the money.

I do care about what happens to him. I don't want to see him destroyed and shamed. I don't like seeing him this sad and hurt. The things I am doing now hopefully will prevent that.